back again

[any chance?]

A long teary conversation from W as I left yesterday, following my aggreement to sign D papers. Hard to believe she would see me as weak by being a nice guy during this horrid time, but maybe I don't understand. Perhaps she is just playing me, and I am a fool.

She is telling me she is confused, and her and others are telling me getting a D and moving out of the state is what she sees as her only option. I am letting her go, and find it very hard just to cut her off and kick her out. At present she is going to stay in the house during the D proceedings.

I am now facing the reality that I have lost her. She needs to do this for her own psyche. I think she does really care for me, but thinks our M is over. Is this common? Do I stand a chance here? If I LRT and GAL, letting her know I will be fine without her, and that I am helping her through the difficult process because I care for her and am a nice guy, is that the incorrect approach?

Between my previous extended trip and this current brief one, I had little time to show her positive change, and she is overwhelmed in a cloud of negativity. It will be interesting to see how she modifies her game plan, if at all, while I am gone. Perhaps she will have moved out by the time I get back, and the writing will truly be on the wall.

We have come what appears to be a full circle in a year, back to the same impending D we were at last year. I really don't know if I should keep the faith/hope wnile looking forward, or screw the whole thing and quit torturing myself.

Thanks for listening.