Scared, I haven't read all of your previous threads, but I think I'm in a similar situation as you are. I know how hard it is.
Haven't you seen any positive signs from your W? Also small things matter, such as the tone of her voice.
For me, acting "as if" has really helped. If you act as if you will move on with your life, I really believe that eventually you will do just that. I've gotten my head straight and can think rationally and more clearly about the situation. Actually, I'm not so sure anymore that staying in the R is such a good idea for me.
