Calling the OM, well exposure is not a strategy of DB and a few vets have moved on, because of advocating it. MLC will chime in here and tell you I shouldnt have done it. I did, I dont think it helped me move closer to my goal. But thats the thing, Im not there, so you cant observe the impact and adjust strategy. Was she mad I did it - beyond furious. Thats the only observable reaction. Except in the last week these nano steps ( are they steps forward or just nothing? )
Ok , so I have been getting on with things, i am painting the new house I moved into, which is good, Its keeping me busy and occupied. Still at the gym, and doing the hiking. Im pretty good during the week, its the dreaded weekends when I dont have my girls, thats when I feel it.
I have lawyers and accountants this week,always a joy and mediation for parenting plan finally starts next week. So I will be much happier when I have that sorted.
Yes I dont know if they are nano steps she has taken, but going past our old home says something - reminiscing, looking back at her life with me, realestate appreciation - I dont know. The one thing I have learnt is I can not mind read my WW. And what I have observed is this topsy turvy reactions / thinking, from someone who is very sane and logical normally.
Anyway I made some soup yesterday and dropped it off for my 2 little ones to have when they come home from school.I was picking up mail and some of my things that was pre arranged. so opportune. I made sure there was only 2 serves of soup, non for WW I dont reward bad behaviour.
I take a break from all of this every week now, it just gets too much intensity and you get pretty wound up. I think you also get too close and its harder to see the path. I am detached but Im not sure its the right thing always, I would like to be lovingly detached but Im having trouble with the first part. I think it is early days, even though it feels forever this has been going on. SoI have to stay the course
Facingdivorce Me: 46 W: 40 D8 D6 Seperated feb 2011
