back again

[gutwrenching]

I hate to sound negative, but you haven't dropped the rope...if you read her a heartfelt letter and talked about good things in the R, that isn't dropping the rope. Also, you talk about losing hope...you are still holding onto the rope because you haven't embraced positives of a new life.

LRT- probably time. Just because the door is firmly closed, doesn't mean it can't open again. It might, it might not. But its time to start planning a new life for yourself, only then will you exude the confidence necessary for you and to have a chance for her to want you back.

This is tough, very tough. But clinging hasn't worked yet...don't think it will now.

Make a list of all the things you won't miss...all the things you can do on your own...start there, find some positives.