After MLC, do they understand their behavior?

[canadianMrs.]

You guys are amazing. Right now I am torn and feeling guilty.
Its funny you shoul mention warnings 25yrs, because I gave H lots of warning what would happen if M didn't work...I was moving home. When I found out about the OW/PA/lies I reacted, and immdiately started planning to go home. I bought a house, started packing etc. It was going fine too, because I was still seeing H in MLC. Now I'm seeing changes I have guilt about not taking a breath and really seeing how I felt, and how this would affect the kids etc. I really wish I could stay; the kids could stay in the home they know, stay in their school, keep their friends and h would be here. We could maybe work on the marriage. However, I hate this town. I am so isolated and home sick. I feel selfish in this, but I have done H`s life 10 years I feel like I should get to do mine now...but now the guilt of at everyone else`s expense. People keep reminding me that H caused this, this was not my 1st choice.
And my kids are outgoing, and will make a new life, and they will have tons fo family around, which they have never experienced. They choose the new house and seem excitted about it. A close friend of the family is a teacher at their new school, they think that is cool. I go back and forth. Too bad MLC couldn`t have contined until I left...haha, so much easier to detach.