Obiviously I have miss stated what I ment. Of course it our family and I want to save. I am trying to own up it and thought I have. I think that some on here have such and axe to grind against men that no matter what I say it will be wrong. I KNOW knitted I am not the victim. I am not trying to be the victim. I am not a little boy. Yes I have issues such as abuse that I have suffered as a child. Who hasnt! I am trying to work through them and not use them as an excuse for [censored]. I dont consider them little boy issues. Instead being an ass why dont you just tell me what you idea of owning up would be ? But for those of you with helpful constructive info. THANK YOU!!!!!