The big punch

[Redo]

Journalling....

Sorry, no updates over the weekend. Tried to stay away from rethinking about this whole mess over the weekend.

Visited my daughter this saturday. It was great!. We had a great time. We did little things, but she loved it all. She even loved the toddler cycle i got her. I am really glad i did this. I am already on schedule to see her again on June-11th to take her to her first swimming class.

In a way this was also good for wife and me. Hard to describe, but i feel that face to face meetings are very different from those on the phone. Our conversations were, for lack of a better word, calm. At one point we were discussing about general stuff like Oprah's last show, Arnold's mess etc. It felt really good. Like old times. But it also felt horrible as to why then are we doing this to ourselves.

Wife wanted me to come inside the house and look at daughter's stuff from school. Her new toys. Daughter also wanted me to feed her. Earlier before the trip i got various advice as to how i should make it more like a business trip, not go inside the house etc. Personally i felt like i should go inside for daughter's sake. So i did it. Went inside, fed daughter lunch and later dinner. Played with her with her toys.

At some point she even asked about the ring. I still wear my ring. I told her that i did not plan on taking it off.
She even thanked me for coming and asked me to take care of myself. I dunno. I could be crazy for feeling happy when says small stuff. But i am happy that she did.

Before visiting i was nervous as to how things might go. Now i feel much better and am looking forward to my next visit. Not just to see my daughter, but to see wife.

But i guess it was back to business on sunday. Lawyer had sent me the draft of the letter for amendments to the decree. I know that most of them will irritate my wife, but all of them are fair. So i told my lawyer to send the letter over. Have to see what wife says now.