Take another look at the word "surrender". It's an amazing word, and it can set you free. In much the same way that forgiveness can.
Surrender is not "giving up" hope. It's "giving in" to circumstances that are beyond our control and accepting them as part of our reality.
Surrender opens up huge possibilities. Actually, surrendering is the bridge to detachment and forgiveness, as far as I'm concerned.
And that opens the door to be completely free to do as you please. I can give you a bit of a spoiler here. "What you please" will be different then, compared to what you think it is now. So best I can say is... don't worry about it.
I think it's something you will remember from the last time. It's just maybe difficult to find your way back there to that place, once again.
