Harrier

[gutwrenching]

Harrier - I don't know anything bout your sitch other than what is here.

But this is not the time to lose hope, it is the time to lead and take the little bit of momentum you have from at least getting the issues out in the open. Now do something about it. Little things to try to re-ignite that spark.

Have you considered Retrouville or counseling? Get an experienced third part involved...