Early this morning, my wife awoke after dreaming that she was having a panic attack. She was extremely upset by my lack of compassion, especially when we were in the airport on the way home. Actually, that's an understatement; I've been abusive throughout our marriage, and she's not putting up with it anymore. I know she loves me, but it must be excrutiating for her to stay in this relationship.
I have trouble talking with my wife about my behavior because I've lost all credibility with her, and I continue to act out. The situation with my wife would likely improve if I could keep calm for more than a day or two. I realize that I won't be able to make progess unless I learn to discuss sensitive issues without getting angry.
