Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

9,
that's pretty much where I'm at now. I know that OM is a symptom more than a cause (well, both really), but at some point I think it's healthy to say sayonara, I wish you both the best of luck. That's pretty much where I'm at now. I think it's hard now because I've been in denial or something. Assuming that, hey, I'm turning back into the *awesome* guy she first M, so of course she'll come back. Well, she's getting further and further away and it's time for me to drop the rope.

The realization is what is hitting me the hardest. So many things remind me of the good times we've had. For instance, at the art fair I passed a booth where W and I bought a nice stained glass piece a few years ago. So many memories there... then again, I've been going there longer than I've known W, so in a sense I can claim the memories for myself.

My friends and family have been super awesome and there for me. As have all of you here on DB. Thanks!

It was a wonderful, sunny almost hot day today. Volunteering was fun, I heard a couple of good bands, including a popular local blues band. Saw many people I knew and talked with them a bit. Met 1st W and kids there, S14 was being a snot, but S12 and I hung out at a burger joint while S14 was in his IC appointment across the street. S12 has been so wonderful lately I cherish all the time I've been spending with him. So, there is good in my life if I remember to look for it.