Rollercoaster of love

[ninelives]

You know learning. Its true when people say that ONLY you can decide when its over. It may be over with your spouse , in her head but then again,people change as you are no doubt aware.

In my sith, my wife is in an active relatioship and it very well be over and she is in love with OM. I dont know. Sometimes I think its over and sometimes ,something deep inside me says its not.

Regardless, I have to live my life like it IS over and there is no going back. Only then can somebody truly detach and live life the way its meant to be lived. Like you mean it and enjoy it.

If we just put our lives on hold and wait out whatever she is going through , a good chunk of life could pass you by. I have already moped around for way too much of it. It is time to enjoy life with my kids and take on new challenges. If she decides to come back, then I will have to see where I am at that point.

ITs the ONLY that makes sense. We all know it , we just have to live it.

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