18 Wheels and a Dozen Roses

[AJM80]

Seriously! I try to think, ok, this may seem unfair now, when I am taking care of almost all the kids needs. But, H is paying for everything now financially and he'll suffer later, when he doesn't have a strong relationship with the kids. I know he misses them and I'm pretty sure he loves and misses me. We're just so mired in all the crap he's done, plus the stuff we jointly did that let up to it (not appreciating each other, growing apart, adjusting to 2 little ones)

Scylla- you've been separated 2 years now? Has there been anything that you've felt really moved things along? So far, with my H, time has helped a lot. BUT he's kind of cake eating. We have some impediments to the status quo coming up. I am in no hurry to D and have to spend $ on atty, health insurance, etc.

I should lose 15 lbs and get a makeover, but I refuse because I want him to love ME, not me trying to look like a 19 yr old stripper.