I often wonder the same things.
I'm doing my best to hold my life and the kids' lives together, do my own personal development work, find more paying work and DB my butt off.

H is in survival mode and done pretty much nothing to change the status quo since he left.

I'm very close to giving up. The Tank is a hair above 'E'.

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.