Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Journaling:

Felt like I had a pretty busy week, GAL'ing and yet saw H quite a bit. Lots of contact; all good.

Tuesday he invited me along for dinner when it was his turn to take the kids out for a bit. We had a nice family dinner. D1 said he was watching me the whole time and took interest in everything I said. Gave me some complements, I returned some. Most important to note was when he replied "Thanks Dear, means alot to me". Felt great!

Wednesday D1 was with MIL and MIL told her that H has expressed interest in coming back. She said that he is thinking on selling the puppy he just bought since D3 seems to be allergic to her and knows if he comes back its an issue. I couldn't believe what I was hearing! MIL may have undermined H's plan on working his way back in.

IC appt Wednesday had C saying that I am now steering the ship since I set a time boundary on Sunday. She said his inital defense when up on Sunday and that was why he first said he still wanted a divorce. Then, as he thought about it later in the day he changed his stance. She said he will now start to come around. I dunno, I want to believe that but I am remaining patient.

Constant texting all nite and day and it seems as if he wants to come out to say he made a mistake but hasn't. One text said: Ever just want to curl up and cry, guess I am tired or just having a bad day". I said "What happenend?". He replied " I don't know, just how I feel I guess". I tried to make him laugh and he thanked me.

He invited me to meet him for a drink or two last night. I made sure we took separate cars so that if something goes wrong, I am in control of my own actions. Conversation went well, no negativity and even some laughs. H walked me to my car and reached in saying thanks for meeting him and gave me a kiss. That was very strange to me...but I'll take it! H text me ten minutes later thanking me again and enjoyed spending time with me. Of course then it led to flirting texts but I tried to divert and eventually he said goodnite.

Today we exchanged even more contact and he expressed interest in coming over after an after work happy hour. A friend of mine came over and she brought the movie Fireproof over for me and her to watch. Her boyfriend had a copy and she heard how good it was too, since she was divorced a year or so ago. Very inspiring!! H called around 8:30 and said maybe in an hour or two, if "I wanted", he can come over, just to call. I text an hour later but his SB called him to meet up for a drink so he apologized and I said it was ok. So that means no more contact for tonight. It's ok though, will see him tomorrow at D3's game and he wants to open the pool Sunday.

Wonder how the weekend will pan out...