I've been thinking lately about all the signs that STBX and her boss were having more than an EA for years. It's almost like I blocked them out in order to be blissfully unaware and somewhat happy. But now, every time I miss STBX, I remember all those things and almost instantly the sadness goes away.
I did well on the GAL thing this week. I went to that b'day party Monday night, had beers with some fellow car guys (I am Sales Manager at a dealership) Thursday night and tomorrow night I am having dinner with the couple who STBX and I have been friends with for years. I have also been working out regularly and finally made some progress on closing the joint bank account I have been using since STBX moved out. I've been dark for 4 days and really feel no need to contact STBX.
For the first time since we separated 1 1/2 years ago, I feel like our lives are separate. I still find myself keeping scorecards and wondering what she's doing now and then, but not nearly as much as even a few days ago. I hope this trend continues.
