Today is a new day

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Journaling------

The weekends without my kids are so hard sometimes. I really miss my H.
On our weekends without them, Friday nights were our nights to veg on the couch together. He'd watch reruns of Criminal Minds, I'd read a book and usually fall asleep until he would wake me up and help me to bed.
Sometimes I'd fall asleep on him.

I'm really trying hard not to get depressed, I know these feelings come and go, I just miss him so much and wonder if I'll ever get the opportunity to do that with him again.

I was thinking on my way home, how can I make this right? Not specifically with my H because I can't right now, but how can I make this right so everything I am feeling is forgiven? I don't know if I'm even making any sense right now.
I have changed so much, for the better...I want to be able to do something to show people, not just him, that I'm different. That I've learned my lesson, that I will not go back down that road that I was on.

I know I am not making much sense...I just wish there was a way I could put my mark on the world and say "Yes...I waS a bad person but I turned my life around."