I don't know what else I can say. I don't think you read these, or if you do, you have a very selective response. Many of us are trying hard to reach you and get you to awaken, but you seem to want to be stuck in this dark place.
I have taken ADs and I know they can help. So can a good T or psych. Please get help so you can change your life.
Not sure if anything said here will reach you, so all I can do is pray you will get help, and that your son will be fine. I really hope he will be, so God bless
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