I've realized (maybe) the reason I've been so emotional lately is that it was around this time last year I started feeling that something was wrong in our relationship.
I promised W that I would help reside the rest of the house this summer. No matter what, I will do this, my word is the most important thing I have. Still, W has been hanging out with OM a lot and not talking to me, not even responding to emails/IM from me.
Ran into W today, I thought she was going from work to airport but stopped at home first. Was nice to see her, but wouldn't let me help her carry suitcase to MIL van for trip to airport or give a hug. OK I figured.
After more siding work, took a break and noticed that W had a list of joint assets underneath a list on the counter. Between that and random receipts between her and OM, I've had enough.
She can have him. I'm done with her. I deserve better than I've received (and yes, I understand the things I've done to drive us apart). Talked to MIL this afternoon and even she is frustrated with how much W brings up OM.
I *love* my inlaws and hope to never lose them, but I cannot go on any longer as the OM in my own M. I'm ready to find a L and start the D process myself. I hate it and wish I were not in this position.
I'm just so freaking angry right now. Angry, upset, disillusioned, hurt... why the f is this happening to me?! I was no where near perfect but I would have given *anything* for my W and our R.
Today's musical selection: Nine Inch Nails - the Fragile
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
