Ok So my paranoia was correct something is going on. Yesterday was the second day in a row where she didn't completely lose her temper over the little things I do wrong. To be honest that had been weirding me out, especially since there hadn't necessarily been an increase in affection either. Well it all came out this morning, she calmly told me that I had left the fan on in the guest room overnight. I tried apologizing, but she said "what's the point you're never going to change...." she didn't sound angry but slightly resentful. Sigh I knew she was bottling it in. I think it might be because I stood up to her and told her that yelling solves nothing. So while there has been no yelling there has been bottling. Which knowing her kills any chance of intimacy. She has been very upbeat, but I wouldn't call it loving.
I hate how I will do things like leave the lights on all the time. I more hate how this is a pet peeve of hers. Sometimes I feel like our lives are just a list of pet peeves to be broken.
The worst part is her insistence on somehow punishing me for those pet peeves, whether it's yelling or becoming less emotionally available.
Ok putting things into perspective though she has been very nice for the last 3 days, I just hope she isn't bottling up too much. I'm probably over exaggerating. To be honest I have been slipping on sOme stuff around the house, and she hasnt blown up. Which is really good. I just worry about what she said this morning. One of the things she wanted for me to change was for me to not be so absent minded. Now I know this sounds ridiculous but it is a real problem for me. My parents and even my coworkers have complained about it in the past.
It's very frustrating since my absentmindedness seems to be one of the last keys to this puzzle. It's something I want to work on M or not. Hate doing things like losing my keys, or leaving doors unlocked, or leaving the milk out, or not changing the toilet paper roll. The list goes on and on. Why can't i seem to remember doing these simple tasks.
