I know i signed off on this thread in March but thought i would update one last time and move on to other areas of the forum for support.
I am feeling rather melancholy this morning and need an outlet so bare with me.
The house was fixed and sold for top dollar and moved out in April. I was too busy during this time, and subsequently moving out to my sisters temporarily, then moving into an apartment, dealing with the emotionaly needs of the kids etc. to maybe appreciate all my life changes. Well, i am finally settling in and getting in to a routine...which is creating thinking time...
The finances are okay, the apartment is working out great, and the kids seem to be adjusting thankfully. My relationship with W is getting worse if you can imagine. Its like she can't dare to look at me or talk to me for more than five minutes. It is aggravating, insulting and illogical. I don't know what drives it. She does not treat strangers this way.
I keep myself busy without thinking too much about tomorrow although i will have to wrestle with the issue of divorce at some point. Am I happy? At ease maybe, not entirely happy. I feel myself thinking of and missing my kids often, even though i see my oldest almost everyday after school. I do not miss my W, nor think of her much, funny that.
So I am still around and adjusting to single life. I have a moratorium on the ladies until i know my head is screwed on right, but maybe i can reach some semblance of 'happy' in the near future. Working out at the gym again and biking allows me to decompress. I'm getting there, where ever there leads me.
