Good morning Tipper, Hugs Your getting excellent advise from some very wise DB's on this site. I see growth, I see a person that is really trying to understand and to change the direction of their life, as WCW said It takes time, alot of hard work. Keep the focus on U, your goals, your dreams, your life and what U see in the future.
Go quietly to a place in your mind, meditate, breath, picture yourself in complete calmness, Let your Higher Power guide you. " Let go and let God " Just let go, forgive yourself and yes your husband too for he has a disease a terrible spriraling disease. A disease that you did not cause, you can not cure, and you can not change. You can not change him.
Focus, read, journal, keep posting here.
I found JOURNALING helped me to write down all of those feelings, the swirling emotions etc. I would start with the date in the book " Courage to Change " and the corresponding reading for that date, or other times i would just let the book fall open to a page and start with that. It was amazing, alot of the time it was just what i needed to hear and to concentrate on.
Believe me your concentration will get better the further U get into the program. Its hard to think, act, concentrate when your life is so upside down.
To change the subject.. Congrats on your bowling!!!
