Ok, I have owned up to it. I have gone public to friends and family members and admitted my A, the day it all came out. Not going to BS I didnt want to get caught but I didnt want it to continue either. I bet if you were to ask 90 % of those who had an affair they would say the same thing.
I dont ask what I can do around the house, I just do it. The dishes, the laundry, and cooking. Now not trying to pat myself on the back or get some kudos here but I was doing that about 50% of the time before the A happened anyway. I have just started doing it with a little more gusto. I am not trying to play dumb here and not looking for a mommy figure to hold my hand. I was just surprised she asked me if I wanted anything let alone food. I didnt read anything into it, was just commenting how surprised I was at the suggestion. According to you it was a no win situation no matter what I said to her. She was being friendly and I was trying to be as well. It was that simple, a passing remark.
You make it sound as if I planned some surgical commando style strike here. I didnt.....not that organized I swear. Since I havent owned up to it properly what more should I do to own up? Not trying to be a smart ass here but I thought I had owned up to it. I value your advice but almost feel like you are attacking me here. I honestly did not come here for pitty despite what you think. I know I screwed up, I pissed away the best thing in my life over a selfish fling. I put my self in front of my family. Now that is all in danger of going away and I am frantic to keep it together. It just [censored] to know that my best effort probably is not enough to keep it all from crumbling. All over a selfish dumbass move on my part.
