I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Perhaps I am. I just don't get why I have to be the one in court. I hate this process and it really hasn't been that bad for me when I compare it to others.

The one time I had to go to court. I got all dressed up and sat in the waiting area. I remember STBXW came in and sat in another part of the room.

Before the case was called my L proposed a settlement hearing and we left.

I felt like such a loser and it goes back to the fact I care about my image. Even when the M was at its worst, the image to the world was the successful family man.

I don't want that feeling again.