when will the pain end

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I wish I would have listened to that dating advice that you just gave. All my friends gave me the same advice. The problem is nobody could have told me different at the time. My wife just moved out and within 2 months I was in a serious relationship. It was like a quest to show I can still get a girl...

That is one of my biggest issues is liking my own company. I played a role in my marriage as the bread winning husband and good dad until I imploded with my insomnia. My marriage was falling apart all around me and I couldn't see it.

With the girl friend, I did all the right things, said all the right things. I am always really good at telling people what the want to hear to make them happy. I don't stop much to think what makes me happy. Do I like the guy I am? I need to figure that one out still.

The girlfriend thought she knew who I really was, but I was playing a role in the end...And the lying to myself on how I felt finally caught up with me again.

I agree, money is money. I got lucky early on in my career and got a good job that pays alot. So it hasn't been an issue. My ex won't settle till she "gets what she is owed..as she puts it" That includes over $5,000 for child support, alimony and private school in additon to sixty percent of the assets. But I have been able to be ok in my head financially.

It has been learning about how I was in our marriage, how I can lie to myself through that our marriage was good.

How I can drive myself into despair because I couldn't fall in love with a girl...

We were doing joint custody until her lawyer talked her into changing to sole custody to get me to give her more money... We have been trying to do it outside of court with a new kind of divorce law called Collabrative Law up until a week ago. So much for that...

Anyway, thanks for quick reply. As you know with this place, talking helps even if your marriage is over...