Can I close the door and leave it unlocked?

[islander]

I keep asking myself what would I do if my W came back today andsaid she wanted to be married to me and work on things.

I really don't know, but I am thinking that at this point, I don't think I want to anymore.

Am I just fed up and emotionally drained to the point there is nothing left.

Or is this a way for me to protect mysf from being hurt anymore.

Even though I say I think I am done, is there anything in me that would snap back if she said the right things. Could I learn to love her again or to accept her as my W.

This is so strange to feel like this now. I think it is where I need to be, if for nohing else than for myself.