Yesterday was another good day, got an unexpected hug from her it was nice.
Did Yoga for an hour and a half, relaxing yet painful. She made fun of it, at first I got a little offended, but remembered that she's always made fun of my physical activities no matter how awesome, manly, etc etc. I think she is secretly proud, just cant get herself to say something nice be it her insecurities or her inability to share her emotions. (we can blame her parents here, they too have a hard time being the encouraging type). Whatever Yoga is for me....
Plugged in my guitar and tried tuning it, after 20 Minutes of playing with the tuner I broke a string. W was changing and getting ready to go to a movie with me later (which she suggested). Told her I had busted a string and was going to go buy a replacement. She seemed shocked I was even trying to tune it. Long story short turns out my guitar was busted, the guys at the shop fixed it for free (surely a 50 dll value) and showed me some tuning tricks. They charged me a dollar total! So I decided to be grateful and bought some accessories I needed anyway. I also signed up for lessons I start in an hour and a half btw. When I got home she seemed surprised... Good... Of course she had to make fun of the amp I bought.
In the past I would stop doing things if she made fun of them. I'll discuss why and the terrible repercussions of that later. I told her about the class and she asked what about the bike fitting scheduled on the same day. I told her I called the shop to ask for the time and she said we were scheduled till Friday. She got real upset about this. She said it was unprofessional to make us wait longer, and that she didn't want to wait 2 extra days. She was so furious that she wanted to just cancel the bikes and go to another shop. Which would ironically mean another week of waiting.... I tried validating, until she turned it on mr and said that I should have put them in their place and demand that they deliver on Wednesday. At this point I stopped validating and let her rant without response. We got to Starbucks, and walked quickly. She immediately asked are you mad?
I said "no, but I don't like that you are yelling at me for what the bike shop did". She immediately snapped out of it and said that she wasn't mad at me, but that I should have said something to the bike people. I told her I did , but that they said they were backed up, and one of the bikes had not arrived yet. This calmed her down a little. Then at Starbucks they were out of the drink mix she wanted, she got irritated again, but I could tell she was trying real hard not to take it out on me. This made me feel better. She ended up getting a shake from sonic. The movie went great, and we had a lot of fun the rest of the evening. She made smoothies later that evening.
I like that she is learning to control herself. I like even better that I can stand up for myself. I used to be so afraid of conflict that, I'd get run over it was never good, and it never ended well for me. Ever since I started standing up for myself things are much better. Just like in WWII appeasement only emboldens your adversary. I need to watch Patton btw.....
