Back here again - why oh why?

[~¤DG¤~]

"For the last 8 years with every argument, i was always the one fighting for this relationship, having to explain why it was worth being together and it saddens me as i as myself..

Isn't my love worthy to be fought for?

______"

Yes, it is. My H could have written that because that is what would happen in our M.
For me, I was in such a fog of self destruction and denial it seems I couldn't focus on anything but myself.
If your H isn't willing to acknowledge his role in all of this and deal with some of the things that he has going on, I don't know what the future will hold.

Right now he is trying to push you away so he is saying hurtful things to get you to leave. Who knows, maybe he wants to be able to cry and say you left him? Make himself out to be the victim?

I still say go to counseling regardless.