Who am I now?

[irishblessings]

B, Antonia, and Tipper -

Thank you for helping getting me through a very rough night. I am so very fortunate I found this site a year ago. To have a place where these "unmentionable" feelings can be aired is lifesaving.

All of the strategies you share are excellent and I do need to start with some type of gratitude journal to begin and end my day. I am so easily frustrated with myself because this journey is so hard and I can't believe how small of baby steps I actually take before I get overwhelmed. I then beat myself up for not being stronger and feel as though I am babying myself and being weak. I want someone to come in and tell me what to do each moment of the day. I can do what someone else wants me to do - and I can do it well. On my own, I am on that tightrope only I have vertigo and no core strength to keep moving straight.

Lots of work to do - thank you for being here. I love you all!