Oh and if you say that the marriage made you feel alive/he made you feel alive, then to quote PEI, you have to keep digging, because something in you is dormant/was dormant in that marriage. There is something in there that has nothing to do with him and that's what you have to find/bring out.
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying