Glam Do you work full time? I have a problem with obsessing about h and ow and what they are doing. I only work part time now. I wish i could find more work or some kind of volunteer work to get my mind off of them. I just can't shake this depression and obsessing. I text h today and said i dont know how u can sleep at night for how you broke your son's heart. I had a lot of anger today. Something struck me here...why bring your son into it? And leave yourself out? Think about that.
And as glamgirl says, this approach does you NO good. It fails every time. I can't speak for God, but my guess is He wants you to start healing. You have to get out of your own way to do that. Don't stop His healing.
I usually never say anything neg. to h. I am at my wits end over this. i wake up at 4am every morning worrying about it.
still getting up at 4 am after 4 years here?...dang, Rysmom...that's just too long. The good news is that you sound as if you are sick & tired of feeling sick & tired. Maybe you are ready to be moving forward, which does NOT mean giving up...but "standing" for your m does not mean "standing still" either. How's YOUR own work going? I never did hear what your 180s are. Or the GAL activities. Yes volunteering is excellent, esp if a job isn't available. Being busy helps. (Glamgirl, you got me motivated to go back to the gym, for sure.)
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
