85 Days

[Denver_2010]

One of the things I had to learn (patience) was that things go at their own pace, no matter how we want them to proceed. I was convinced last fall that W and I would be back together by xmas. Things generally went forward, and then backward, and here we are still on the tilt-a-whirl.

Hard to hear now, but just because you canceled your reservation for this weekend doesn't mean you won't get back to that place where you are spending the night together after a big outing. It just won't be this weekend. Enjoy the time you do spend together (and assume you will go with her unless you don't... be confident!)

Thanks LP. I'm really needing the words of encouragement right now.

For me, in March, and even February to some to degree, I was very confident that my W would be moving back into our home when her lease expired at the end of this month. I thought that we would be seriously piecing by the time that summer was here.

Now... obviously that hope, that expectation, has been dashed. I'm having a VERY difficult time dealing with it and finding the strength to continue the fight.

I have been told over and over again that my anticipated timeline was unrealistic. I guess that is right, but it is very hard to accept when EVERYTHING my W was saying and doing indicated that things were moving in that direction.

I KNOW that I have to accept the reality of the way that things are... to accept that truth...

Some things are easier said than done though.

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Denver