I will begin the update with the first contact we had in 9 days, for those of you who follow my sitch that is a long time for me.
She calls last Thursday but I was out to lunch with a friend that flew in from out of town. I did not answer the phone call. A few minutes later I get a text from her
Thursday May 12th
X: I made an appointment with Jody....Just thought I would let you know
I did not respond. I finished my lunch and took my friend home. While he got set up in the house I decided to call her back.
M: Hey you called?
X: yeah did you get my text?
M: I got a few text, I was out to lunch should I hang up and read it?
X: No I was just letting you know that I made my first appt with Jody.
M: Oh Ok good, I hope you get something out of it.
X: We will see. How are you?
M: I am doing good how are you?
We talked for a few minutes and the convo was moving kind of slow. I went to hang up but she kept talking.
M: So when is your appt?
X: Tomorrow at 9
M: Wow I usually have to wait a week
X: Yeah I thought the wait would be longer but I got it right away. They had two noon and 9 I took the early one
M: I figured you would take the late one
X: No I have things to do during the day I figured the early one was better
We talked a few more minutes and I don't recall about what. At some point we began to talk about vacations and different things we had done and places we had visited.
X: Disney was fun. It was like I was a little kid
M: I bet you can't guess what my fav part of that vacation was
X: It was the parade at the end of the magic kingdom closing or the elevator ride at MGM
M: Wow yeah you are right. But do you know why the closing of the park was my fav
X: Why?
M: Because at that moment I could not figure out who was the kid you or D, you guy's faces were lit up like you had just stepped into a disney movie
X: LOL yeah that was awesome. Vegas was fun also
M: What was my fav in that vacation
X: The tickets to the show we got and the dinner at the Eiffel Tower because of the seats by the fountain
M: Wow you're good. You are right
We did this a few minutes and she got all my fav moments right
M: I don't think I like this game. You are good.
X: LOL
Talked a few more minutes
X: All those memories all those dreams gone.......how sad
M: they didn't have to be, I still believe they still don't but oh well that is just me
X: yeah I guess. It is just sad. So much more we wanted to do and we never did. We should have done it. I always wanting to go camping.
M: yeah camping would have been fun. You know life gets in the way one week turns into two into a month and before you know it you have lived wanting to do something and not actually doing it. It is too bad. I would do things differently.
She went to talk about different things she wanted to do, she sounded kind of down. Everytime she mentioned something we could have done my response was "I would handle things differently" and left it at that.
In all we spoke about an hour. At one point early on I said
M: Well sounds like you got to wherever you are going
X: I am just at moms house it's 90degrees out
M: Well I don't want you to sit in the car roasting so I will let you go
X: You don't have to make excuses to hang up with me
M: I am not lol I just figured it is hot since your AC does not work.
We talked for about 40 minutes after that.
Next morning I had a test for the military and I was tied up from 8AM till about 3PM around 11AM she called but I did not answer again. I could have but figured I would call her on the way home.
About 3PM I called her back. She answered
M: Hey you called?
X: yeah did you get my VM?
M: No did not check it. Was up?
X: Schooled called. D missed school?
M: Yeah she had a bunch of blood work to do but she went to work school around 11AM
We talked about D for about 30 minutes, she had done the DB session early that morning and initially I thought the phone call was about that. I assumed she had done the call but she did not bring it up. She never mentioned she actually called so neither did I.
D was with my parents all weekend so Friday my buddy and some other friends went to a bar to watch a live band play.
Sat went to NYC visited Central Park hung out all day drank some beers and my buddy and I went to a show to watch a live television show. That was fun. After the show went to dinner and drank some more beer. Got home home late. Sat morning I also got a call from a bill collector looking for X, not a good sign.
Next day went back to CT and back to NYC ended up in the financial district and visited 4 Irish Pubs. My buddy stole a glass from each one.
Monday my company left and I had to call her about some Tax issue so driving back from the airport I called her
Monday May 16th
X: Hello?
M: Hey I wanted to let you know that ABC bank called looking for you. I did not give them any of your private info but figured you should know.
X: Oh yeah great thanks. You called to tell me that bill collectors are calling me
M: I did not know who they were, I just figured you might want to know. They never told me who they were and why they were calling.
X: Yeah don't worry they have my number also, they have been calling me. Sorry they are bothering you
M: No that is fine. You doing ok?
X: You really want to know? Or. You want the same thing I tell everyone. I AM FINE.
her tone was pissy and nasty
M: Well I asked right?
X: I am broke and have no job now. I am fine. But you are doing ok you got a promotion. So good for you
M: What did you say?
X: Nothing never mind
M: How is the job search going?
X: It's Blackwell Ok what do you think. It [censored]
M: I am sorry
X: For what? Its fine. I don't need anyting from you. I am fine. I will be ok.
M: Well obviously you are having a bad day so I am going to let you go. I did not call you to irritate you, just figured you wanted to know about the call, that is all. Have a good day.
X: No I am sorry I am just being a ahole and a b!tch. It is not your fault and I should not be taking it out on you. I just can't help it. I get angry.
M: Well I understand that. Matter of fact that is the reason I don't tell you to go f^&* off and hang up on you, because I understand you are frustrated and I am an easy taget.
X: Yeah but you should not be. I will figure it out.
M: Well if you need someone to talk to, you know where I am.
X: Thank you. I am fine.
Silence..........
X: Did I tell you I talked to Jody?
M: No. You told me you had an appt but never told me that you called or how it went.
X: It was ok. She did not say much. I could talk to a f*cking brick wall. All I did was talk. I doubt that someone is going to fix all my problems in 3 sessions, I doubt she is going to get me to go back running into your arms cause that is what she is there to do.
M: The sessions were for you to use as you wanted. She is not there to convince you of anything. At this point your decisions have been made, all she is there to do is help you work through it. She usually challenges me pretty good. You don't have to call her anymore if you don't want, they are for you not for me. What made you call now?
X: Depression. Well she said that she thought I was pretty smart and that I had done a lot of growing up. I told her about the teddy bear inccident (you would have to go back a few post to know what that is) I told her I talked to you about it and she asked me if you had valued my opinion and listened. I told her you seemed to have, but I was not sure yet. We talked. She is very intrigued by our sitch
M: When I first spoke to her I had so many thoughts in my head I could hardly get it all out in 1 hour so the next time I called her I had to write it down before I called. Maybe if you try that you could have a plan in place before you call her. That might help. If you decide to call her back. Did you still want to do the last session together or would you rather have that on your own?
X: Well I have not had my second session yet but yeah that still sounds good to me
M: Well I know you have not had your second sessions, you will call when you are ready. I am in no rush. Sounds like you are driving?
X: Yeah going to Ponca looking for a job.
M: Oh ok. I thought you might stop by the book store lol
X: LOL I just don't have the money right now. I think I should wait to land a job before I spend money on anything
M: yeah that is prob smart. Would you like me to send you a copy?
X: If you send it I will read it
M: That is not what I am asking you X, it's pretty simple if you would like I can if not i won't.
X: No send it. I will read it.
M: Ok well when I have time this week or next i will go by the bookstore and send you a copy.
Talked a few more minutes and that was it.
Monday 16th Evening
I called her back regarding some tax stuff.
X: Hello?
M: Just wanted to let you know the money owed for the IRS I just paid off. It was only 120 so we are good. OK?
X: Wait we still owed 120?
M: Yeah remember the letter you showed me while I was there. I got one saying it is paid and I did not know if you had a copy of the letter but it is paid.
X: Oh ok. Thank you
M: No problem. Good night
I hung up but before I hung up I heard her snickering (IMO she was thinking to herself 'you are calling for business but you really want to talk to me some more but you are playing it cool, i get it') now you can say that is mind reading but whatever, I know I am pretty close on that. How do I know. Because after the phone call I heard the snickering and thought..........She will call or text back.
20 minutes later text from her
X: I thought you were going to send me 120 LOL
M: hmmmmmmm NOpe, Sorry
X: That is ok. LOL
That was it. Now ALL of u are caught up. My fingers hurt.....
