Yesterday had a decent convo with daughter and wife. I told her that i was planning on buying a toddler bike for daughter. Wife was giving me ideas on what activities to do. I asked her if she wanted to join us for lunch, but she declined.
She again called up this morning to tell me not to get too many candies as daughter has a big sweet tooth. So we talked for about 2 mins. I asked her how she was doing. She just says 'we're okay' and changes topic.
I know i should not waste my time doing this, but i try to gauge her feelings by her words and voice. Hard to pin down what she is going through. Sometimes i feel like she is way ahead of where i am as she always sounds so happy. I guess it is also because she has so much family surrounding her.
Right now i am trying to form this idea in my head that i should consider 2 years as a garbage time. That these 2 years in my life should not count. That way i will not worry that time is running out. That way i'll know that i have 2 years to see where we might find each other at. Sounds lil crazy, but seems like that sorta calms me down from freaking out about the future.
I guess i have a busy week. Have to assemble the bike. I also got the '5 love languages' book. Started to read it. I wish i got this book a year ago.
BITS M 38 W 36 D 7 Married 15 yrs W left for 6 months in 2009 W Filed for D 01/03/11 piecing now...
