Nothing much to update on. I went onto the computer last night to check into this website. I always check the history to see what sites my kids have been visiting on the internet. Wife rarely uses the computer.
History log showed that someone had visited a number of sites related depression, stress leave from work, chronic fatigue, self testing for depression and natural cures for depression. I doubt that it was one of my kids that was visiting these sites given their ages.
My wife has admitted only once that she is depressed about where she is in life. It bothers me that she doesn't share with me what she is dealing with on a day to day basis. Shows me that we are still very far apart relationship wise.
I also wonder how much affect this depression has on her unwillingness to work on the relationship. Does it continue to add to her fog. At this time I see three barriers between me and wife from a renewed relationship perpsective:
1) Current depression issues 2) Ongoing presence of OM 3) Wife's perception that I am still controlling her
I can only control the outcome of number 3, so I will continue working on this as much as I can.
