Not really a lot to add today. My allergies are taking a toll on me the past day or so. They make me very tired, to the point I went to bed around 8 last night and slept til almost 6 this morning. Part of that might also be mood. I'm feeling a little down today. Realized W and I have plans separate from each other every weekend until the end of June, and she has her own plans all but one weekend in July.

Part of me is ready to pack it up, but I know that ultimately W is the one I want to spend my life with. Still, right now I'm hurting that we'll go at least another two-three months without any significant quality time (one of her LLs) and that I'm missing out on my LLs (affirmation and physical touch).

I'm sure I'll feel more upbeat later. I just have to allow myself to feel like this from time to time rather than stuff my feelings away.

Me 43 W 38
M 5 T 7
SD20
S15, S13 with 1st W
ILYBNILWY June 2010
Separation/Bomb July 2010
Divorce Feb 8, 2011