THanks 25. I needed to hear that. After 2 days of crying histerically in panick and fear, I have reread that post from the 14th and went to another alanon meeting tonight. And I am getting back to the understanding I had at that time. I agree that he is so drunk, manipulative, and confused. I was just heartbroken. I had to cry.
I am going to read the rest of the co-dependent no more book (I am on ch. 3 now). It is me to the 'T'. I know it. I will try to apply what the rest of the book says. I just have to get through reading it. I plan to have it read and my responses ready for him before we end up talking (probably next week).
I know its alarming how different the two posts above were. I understand. I am starting to gain my perspective back, I just need to get the strength to go through with this talk we are going to have in the soon-future.
I am trying to pull myself together and get some responses in my head/on paper ready to be able to give in response to my H's questions he has.
I am sure he is going to ask me to sign papers of some sort(seperation, Divorce, ect...) and I am sure he is going to want to know when he can get his stuff.
I am getting prepared to tell him: -I am sorry you feel that way. -I do not want a D, but I do not want to live with you while you are drinking at the bars everynight. -I am going to alanon to help myself heal. Its an awakening to all the things I had done in the past months to try and control your drinking and I understand Those things did not work out for me. I am learning to let go and follow the path God chooses for me. -I think we need to take this time apart with out any quick harsh rash decisions being made just yet. Let time heal us one way or another. -Can you pay me 200$ a month for garage rental or remove your constuction stuff. -Can you have your stuff out of the house by June. -I apologize for trying to "fix" you in the past, I now see my part in our break down.
Is there anything you think I should not say from the above list? Or am I on the right track for now? Thank you so much 25 for leveling me out. I admit - I panicked. I feel I am already in a better place after getting my tears out. THANKS, Cant wait to here your advice. I really respect it!!! TIPPER
