I know that I have started to do the 180's he has noticed and told me his wish I did them 5 yrs ago. Well I just keep in my mind the things that he said that pushed him to this.
I know that I am working on these things for me as if he see's this then I am sure others do also and it was a wake up call for me. I have now in the last 24 hours stopped him in his tracts he did not know what to say or do. I told him yesterday even though I do not sleep in the bed any more I washed his sheets told him I hope he enjoyed them when he went to bed. Today even though I should not under doctors orders right now be doing a lot. I got out the summer comforter for the bed. Washed it seen that it needs to be fixed seam coming out will do that tomorrow. But asked him if he wanted me to but the winter one away as I washed the summer one seen that it needs to be fixed will do tomorrow.
He just looked at me like I was speaking so other launghaue. Doing this was for him but also for me. I am realy enjoying keeping up on stuff like he wanted. I also am trying to think a step ahead.
I know that he says he wants out so I am doing these things to show him I have changed but also for me. As I know that I will be down for a while after my surgery next week.
I have been doing a lot of reading on here and it helps me so much. I know that I have a long road ahead of me but keep taking one day at a time. God is carring me a lot lately and I know will keep until I am strong enough to do it on my own.
