The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

I don't know why Mondays are always so hard. I intuitively know that Mondays are definitely a day that H and OW meet up. Mondays are the "no underwear" days....he usually only did that when we would go out evenings. PLUS the last few Mondays LIKE CLOCKWORK, he calls me around 11:30am driving back from one jobsite headed to another, but on Mondays, he always calls me on my office phone (where I am a consultant) rather than my cell phone. I think it is to make sure that I am at work and perhaps not at school where OW works. At least that is my theory.

Trying to learn how to let go of some of my anger. Last night we were watching a show and Jesse James was being interviewed (notorious cheating husband of Sandra Bullock). I can't stand ANY CHEATERS! It is such a trigger for me. I told H to turn the channel....because the guy is a jerk. Feeling angry and unsettled for extended periods of time can't be healthy right?

I am wondering if we can actually survive his infidelity since he most likely will never admit it to me? I think it makes it easier for him, but for me there will always be lingering doubt.

Thanks for listening....Abbey

Song for the day: "Manic Monday" Bangles