IB, first of all, you did wonderfully! Secondly, I am not at all surprised by what the ow looks/seems like.
Thirdly, I know how scary this all is. But, you are doing it.
I would be worried if you didnt have moments of fear and sadness. This is a lifealtering thing to have happen.
I think that you sometimes feel you should be feeling or doing things in a certain way or that you should be at a certain point in all this.
We all get through this in our own time and in our own way. But I do know that the more you push things down, the more you will have to deal with later.
So, cry if you want to. Stomp your feet, hit your pillow. Yell in the shower. Allow yourself to feel, sweetie. Get it all out.
It will come in waves. But you will begin to notice the lows not so low and so frequent over time and the highs will be more and more steady.
Sweetie, this is all part of the journey. One in which we all didnt have to take, but, hopefully can grow and learn from.
