I dropped off D with W this morning. It was a positive exchange. W was there when I pulled up and she looked a little beaten up. Not sure if she had been crying, or if she was just tired.
W came up to my truck and unhooked D. I snuck in and wiped D’s nose off saying “I don’t want to leave you with a snotty girl.”
W noted how cute D looked in the outfit I had her in.
We chatted a little bit about D, things she has been doing, our weekend together, potty training, etc.
W said she was going to go in and get a cup of coffee. She asked if I wanted one, before I responded she said, “I don’t think I will sit here and drink it.”
I said I was OK and I should be getting to work. I left thinking about this, should I have accepted her offer? Did she actually want to sit and drink a cup together? Mind reading I know.
As we were wrapping it up W said she would send pics, I said I would appreciate that.
I know you wise souls have brought it up, and truth is, I think I am fighting expectations a bit right now. IDK, just the way she is looking at me now, the way our conversations have been going. It all feels like something has changed. BUT, she is going through a VERY emotional time right now. I know how silly it is to try and read into anything she says or does right now. It’s just…. You know….
Honestly, I am emotionally drained right now. If we stick to our normal schedule, it will be a week before I see W again. I think I need the time.
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