Something happened this weekend that made me feel really good.
After the service I went back to my parents house. Parents, brother and SIL drove separately. They didn't stick around for the reception and instead went and got dinner. When I left I called and asked if they were on their way home yet. Said they were just leaving.
Well, turns out I beat them to the house by about 10 minutes. I was locked out and D had pooped on the way home and I had to change her.
I was able to get in the backyard and I changed D on the outside table.
Later that night, my mom and I were talking. My mom and I have always been able to have some really good conversations. She's someone I look to for good judgement and a "thinker."
Just a note, we have not talked about DB'ing, or a lot of what I am doing. I have kept the subject pretty generic.
Anyways, she says she has seen me change. She brought up the situation of them being late back to the house. She says "you know, the old CS would have gotten angry and been P'd off the rest of the night."
It really made me think. Maybe these changes ARE real. I didn't even think about it when it happened. But when she brought it up I realized she was right.
I guess what it comes down to.
Don't sweat the small stuff.
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
