When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

I only whine here. Trust me, he has NO idea about any of it. I'm an expert at always looking and sounding like I'm happy happy joy joy at all times. It's pretty rare for anyone to see me upset and I don't talk to anyone about things that upset me.

I'm not saying any of that is a good thing, it's just the way it is and I have tried and tried to change that through lots of therapy but I haven't been able to do it.

I definitely wanted to tell him that I wasn't mad but that I was feeling insecure because some of his actions seem to be the past repeating themselves but I was driving my car with two other people in it. Not exactly something I could talk about freely with other people around. He is an expert at catching me with things at times that are impossible for me to say anything.

Martyr? Nope. I know exactly what I've done and I've done it all to myself. I'm telling it like it is. I don't like it, it is what it is.

Yes, I choose not to talk to him about some things because they will set him off. There is no reason to rock the boat when day to day things are fine.