Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

Ok so planets have shifted a bit the last hour or so. I am on the wayyyyy top of the rollercoaster right now.

H: Sorry for calling so much today I'm not sure our conversation was complete but I can tell you didn't want to talk. I feel like an as@ today. Have a good nite. Sorry.

Me: Sorry, just busy! You called at a bad time and you know what Sunday after dinner is like! What else was missing from conversation? Ur set on divorce and just waiting a few months.

H: You asked me where I was right now, I was honest but I never know what could happen. I don't want to fight. I shouldn't have said anything.

M: Yes, I did, I know, my therapist wanted me to ask. Yes, I know no one ever knows and I agree. I'm not fighting at all! I need honesty. I do see counselors point that how could either of us expect a way to make a firm decision no one would regret without talk and spending time to see. Bad feelings subside, sure, but we both avoid and that is how we got into this mess. So I am doing 180s for myself and putting out there as I should. With whomever I am with, I fear nothing and don't leave a stone unturned. A true partner mind, body and soul is what I want and would only want the same from me.

H:I agree with the last part 100%. And when you asked me about right now I also said I like where we are now; not deep but a way of being civil to see if we can get by the small things and move to the next step. I just can't rush into that. I'd like to go on a date someone in the future, just dinner or a drink and talk. Not deep though, kinda like a new start, make sense?

(Here is where my heart dropped-now he wants to be with a OW??)

M:You said someone or did you mean sometime?someone else? Please explain.

H:Sorry, sometime, damn autocorrect

M:Ok sometime with me? Just to be clear?

H:Yes with you..has to be slow and little things for now, if you can?

(Here I pulled back up...to the sky-so glad I asked)

M:That is exactly where I am too. We need to do it right and rediscover the different persons we became. We don't know each other like we should and could. Wow. Can't believe we are agreeing. We focused on the kids, now gotta get to know each other to see if we should be with each other.

H: Well lets pick a day sometime soon, go for a drink, just something small and see, sound ok?

M:Sounds like a plan.

H: Glad we talked, Good nite beautiful.

M: Gnite.

What in the world happened? As fast as I want to detach so bad I get drawn back in. I have got focus on a report due tomorrow and I can care less right now! A small thing can turn into something so big!