Won't stand for a broken family

[Timetotry]

I don't know what the he!! is the matter with me that I wanted to finish and clarify the rest of the texting last night! I should have known what I was in for!

I said I wanted to make sure what I was supposed to discussed is finished. I mentioned how the counselor said about confused verses divorce. He said he isn’t confused at all and thinks the same way since he left. He says that he is still wanting a divorce. He was waiting, he is fine with how we are right now, no fighting, no negativity, etc. He says he comes around for the kids and to be friends since we have to be in each others lives forever cause of kids and he knows once he files I will be different. Then he said "Well that is what you said at the beginning but then you changed to say its just a piece of paper". I said "But you said you were confused on Easter" and he said "no, he was just missing the kids and doesn’t want to come back for that reason cause that isn’t right". I just nodded and said it has to start with friendship to goto the next level. I asked "Well this limbo can’t last forever like a few years, its not fair to everyone. The IC is suggesting that we talk/meet to ensure we are on the same page whether its to D or M and not discussing gets us nowhere." He said "I think I would make a decision within the next few months anyway but maybe my mind will change". Yet, he then said how good I look and tried to make another pass at me and said he hopes it doesn’t change the physical attraction he has for me. OMG! Not the time and place to say that!

Hour later I get a text:
H:Hope what I said came across right…I know my head is a confusing place to be.
Me: Ur not confused. Ur still going to divorce but ur waiting to file and you don’t want to have me get mad and effect kids. Right?
Him: Right now yes…doesn’t mean months from now.
Me: What not months from now? Divorce? If so then ur thoughts are thinking towards divorce but you want space and time to see if thoughts change? Is that the right message? Sorry to ask but want to pass on the right one. Kinda like a sabbatical then?
Him: Close.

OMG! He is confused or he is using me! Someone hit me with a 4 by 8!!