Mission 25. I Really Mean it this time>

[ninelives]

Just leaping back to my thread from Denver's. And I dont feel too bad for being on Denver's. He knows he can live on mine if need be.

Thanks for the 2x4's 25. All well founded. Yes clingy and selfcentered not good qualities for sure. Working on them.

What I did when I found out was really bad. After we were back together last July, she was really stand offish with me. NO interaction whatsoever. She wouldn't hug me or even look into my eyes.

Almost Ruined our KISS concert by being so nasty most of the day. Texting in front of me all the way down to the concert and during dinner b4 concert. Absolutely sabatoged our anniversary where I went all out to make it nice and romantic. She didnt want to have the champagne I had chilled by the pool after our dinner together where half we through she insisted on talking about a business venture we went into together when I have asked her many time not to bring that up again because it upsets her.

The reason I m bringing these up was that all tha went through my head when I found out.

The worst thing that happened is that she had him in our bed when I was gone for holidays with the kids. She asked if she could use my house to get away from her b1tchy mother since she was living with her at the time. We were separated and she didnt have her own house yet. That was so bad.

When i caught her via blackberry, there were messages from OM about me, since it was Halloween night , and we were partying together. She ignored me all night and was mean. ONly time she came up to me was when she wanted me to buy her a drink. We were actually at the bar where he was working as a DJ.

He texted soooo many times. When we got home, she said she was tired and wanted to go to bed. We used to always have sex when we got home from the Halloween party. She came out of our bedroom and was in her panties, skimpy ones at that, and walked into the kitchen, then went back into the room.

When I went in, she immediately got up and went out to the living room. Said she'd be back. ( BTW, she was texting when I walked into the room)

I waited for about 30 min, looked at some photoalbums and then came out and she was " passed out on the coach with her blackberry still in her hand"

Thats when i checked her messages.

Two messages I will never forget from OM and this is the first time I saw his name:

" You better not touch 9 tonight, Ill be really p1ssed if i ever find out you touched him. If you do, it will be like getting raped, is that what you want, to get raped once a month by him"

He made another jealous comment about some tattoo gyt that has done her butterfly tattoo. He apparently propositioned my wife though he himself is married and has two kids.

The Om made a stupid threatening comment that he would do damage to his house and didnt care who was there.

And there were over a dozen other texts with him calley her honey etc.

I lost my mind. i woke her up, the whole suicide thing was threatedne.

When she finally admitted to sleeping with him despite denying the entire time. I spit in her face. I was so angry. I regretteed doing that hours later, but at the time. I did not.

She said, " Im glad you did that, I deserve that "

But recently she said I did that to her twice. Once here and once at the hospital. That was not the case.

I said to her., that when she was here, She hit me in the neck twice because I kept asking her to leave.

Anyway, that is what I did when I finally learned the truth. Talk about dramatic. UGGGGHHHHHH

Not proud but I thought you might want to know the truth 25.

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