Can I close the door and leave it unlocked?

[islander]

9,
I know that I loved my W and I still do. I know that we had a lot of great times together too. But I am so tired of this, of feeling alone and without hope. I don't know that I have any fight left in me. I think I would feel better about myself if I just start to move on...slowly. And there isn't anybody that would be able to say that I didn't try, that I wasn't willing to do anything to save my M. I want to feel good about myself again, and start living. Maybe she will wake up and have a change of heart. Maybe I will still want our M to be great, or maybe I will say that I am done. IDK. But I might be ready to find out.