Can I close the door and leave it unlocked?

[islander]

To be honest, the more I detach, the more I am starting to wonder if I even want my W to come back. If I do, I don't know how much longer I will. The longer this goes on, the more it seems our M is getting tothe point that it will be damaged to much to fix. I just keep thinking about everyhing that has happened, and I just don't know anymore. I never bought my W would have done this, and now I question whether I even knew her.

I also think I may take my ring off again. I am o ly married to a piece of paper right now. Mu freind has been trying to set me up with somebody, and I am thinking about letting him. It is a tough decision for me, but I feel like I have been alone for so long now. I only get one life, and I am ready to really start living again.