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[punkin]

Thank you guys. My mind is still racing 90mph. I am a planner. I have to know what goes where. I like order.

To lose this home will be sad. We put so much time and sweat and blood into it. What hurts the most is that he seems to have lost all feeling for the place, as if he never did care. I know that's not true, but it's back to "Its what YOU (meaning me) wanted".

I realized today that I am doing it again. My mind shifts into gear before anything else, and leaves the rest of my body behind, meaning my spirit. I have to slow down somehow and hand this over to God. He will guide me through. Quit trying to jump the gun.

In the end, I will be alright, however it turns out. Even if that means starting over from scratch. I'm still getting alimony x 5 years, time enough for his retirement to kick in hopefully.
I'm starting to feel a bit excited about moving back to town. They are building new duplex's that are very nice and in nice neighborhoods. I could just set back and let someone else worry about taxes, maintainence and lawncare for a good long while, while I take my time to look at what I REALLY want.

See? Sound better already, just from letting go and handing it off to God.

Hope everyone has a Wonderful Sunday! God Bless us Everyone!