Wow. I took a whole day off posting. Hopefully, that's a good sign.
I had another good conversation with S17 last night. Our relationship was going downhill for quite some time and after our big fight we have been talking more than we ever have. He is really starting to trust me more and understand me more. I have managed to that without him having to think poorly of his mother or fully realize that she isn't always honest with him.
While talking to him I realized that OM is not only controlling STBX like a puppet, but I was allowing him to control my life and my happiness. I may not be able to stop him from taking my wife and her life, but I can choose to not let him control me anymore.
Since I "quit" just a few days ago, I feel calmer inside and see some hope and happiness for the future. I had allowed myself to get out of shape since the separation, but yesterday started working out again. Exercise certainly makes me feel better and I admit that I want to look good some day when STBX sees me and I want to look good to help find someone new to share my life with. I am going to make some woman an incredible partner.
